It isn't the end. And it isn't the beginning. It's just a part of it. For him, the pages are long and exhausting and full of hard that we know as Reactive Attachment Disorder. Because his story is so trauma filled, our story is too. Our stories have a ripple affect on the people around us.
He called me a couple of weeks ago from the Residential Facility where he currently lives. He was telling me about some unkind comments that had been made to him that day. The peer told him that because he was adopted, he was probably unwanted. I reminded him that wasn't true. We confirmed to each other that God created him and he was most certainly wanted. Then he asked, "did God know I would be this way".
This way. I knew what he meant. Inside my gorgeous kid with a huge smile is so much hurt and anger and fear and shame.
It stopped me cold for a second, but I quickly answered yes. Yes he did. He created you to be here, to be part of our family. He knows your story and He is still writing it. My son's hard, your hard, mixed in with all of the day-to-day, from brushing our teeth to landing new jobs, to being healed from disease to not. It is witness to the greatest story ever told. The one where Jesus died for us. Because of love. And he redeems every single part of our story.
But, we do have some creative rights. We are free to choose Him to trust his writing of our story or we can take control and try to rewrite the parts we don't like. We might even spice it up a little, make it more interesting, or calm it way down so there is no risk at all.
Sometimes we fight it when it doesn't match up to our dreams. Sometimes, we consider writing our own selves out of the story because we can't imagine an ending worth fighting for.
But just like I tell my son, oh sweet boy, when your story is more complete, when you have let the trauma and control go and let God fill all those hurt places, your story is going to ripple to so many places where there are other people who need to hear it. Because our stories affect each other and we use them to share hope and to encourage others who have similar stories. Who may just be wondering if their story is worth it.
You have a story! This day, and the next day, and the next...they are just parts of your story but they are not the end. So be encouraged, the great story writer is at work and you are a best seller.
Happy Monday y'all,