Do you have a phobia/fear from being a kid? I do and it drives my husband crazy.
I hate closed doors.
I remember one time when we were young kids, visiting family friends in another state. My entire family slept in the same room and my brother, sister and I slept on the floor. I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, and because the door was shut, the room was pitch black. It took me forever crawling around that room trying to feel for the handle. By the time I got the door open I was sure the room had closed completely in on me. Don't you know it, I left that door cracked when I crawled back to my place on the floor.
When we were kids, the last thing my parents did when we went to bed at night was close our door. I hated it. Immediately I felt cut off and far away from them. I can't explain it, like most fear it doesn't make sense, but it sure is scary for me. I need to know what is happening or who might be on the other side of the door.
Rex and I have slept with our bedroom door open since our wedding night. I can definitely say it is one thing he has given on, because I know many times, especially when we have guests, that he really, really wants that door shut. For me, even with guests I'm gonna leave it cracked- even just a little- but enough to convince myself it is open.
I know it is silly.
Doors in our family get a lot of attention, especially the slamming of them.
Drives this momma up the wall.
I could live with that until the slamming turned to locking which became a problem for us not knowing whether or not our son was safe on the other side. If you've parented kids with self-harm threats, you understand the panic this can create, especially when they do not respond when you talk to them.
Doors take a beating in our family.
When Shayne was a baby he kept climbing out of his crib at ten months old, but wouldn't stay in a toddler bed- he would lay down behind his door and fall asleep. Every time we would check on him, we would wake him up. We solved the problem by cutting an entire panel out of his bedroom door so we could keep him in his room at the top of stairs; but still see him. We got really good a dropping a blanket through that hole so he would be warm in his favorite sleeping spot.
We have sawed locks and handles off of bedroom doors to make sure our son, who had locked himself in, hadn't done something really stupid.
And our recent favorite is just taking the entire door down. I've drug that dumb door to the attic more than once. It serves as a reminder to angry boys that doors are a privilege, not a right.
With all of this talk about about not shutting doors, I need to tell you that I do appreciate a locked external door. Because that door locked up serves the same purpose in keeping unwanted people out.
I guess my fear and my comfort just depends on which side of the door I'm on.
Happy Thursday y'all. Check your doors.