It's Friday. It's another five minutes of free writing with Lisa-Jo Baker.
I blinked and my baby so awaited will be a graduate before year end. He is so determined to brave into the world and take it by storm. He is fearless.
He's thinks he's ready. I'm not sure.
So I try to grasp hold of a little more of him.
more of his hugs.
more of his out of the blue chats.
more of the real smile that sneaks out when he's laughing and happy.
more of the awesome sparkle and light God put right into his soul the day he formed him in me.
more of the knowledge seeker.
more of the hunter.
more of the big brother that loves and protects and teaches the Little's when he thinks I'm not noticing.
more of the baby boy that I could control. and protect. and teach.
I'm grasping for more of him. I'm grasping to keep him close and I know I can't.
God created him to go and do.
And he will.
I see him growing out of my grasp and I know this is how it is supposed to be yet it's hard because his dreams are big, and scary and dangerous.
I want to keep him close- but since I can't I'll trust God to grasp him tightly. His grasp is really much safer than mine, anyway.
Happy Friday y'all!
Very well written! It seems like the kind of thing that if your son reads it he'll be like "Aww Mom" - proud, but at the same time hoping that you don't post it on his facebook wall :)ReplyDelete
Have a great weekend,
Thanks Jenni. I decided a long time ago that if my pride and joy embarrased him...then oh well. Stop by anytime.Delete
"I see him growing out of my grasp and I know this is how it is supposed to be yet it's hard because his dreams are big, and scary and dangerous."ReplyDelete
OH MY GOODNESS! I can so relate to this with my own son. It's amazing the feeling of awe, wonder, and pain that the heart of a mother feels. Just WOW.
Stopped by from FMF, thank you for sharing. :)
I agree..sometimes I wonder how much it can take but thankful for the blessings. Thanks for stopping by.ReplyDelete
Such a great post.ReplyDelete