Loss

I'm linking up
to Lisa Jo,
thegypsymama for five-minute-friday 
Simple rules- write for 5 minutes, no editing, no second-guessing.  Just let the words flow.



Today's prompt- Loss

I don't immediately think of death when I hear the word loss.  In my life, it looks more like loosing an expectation, dream, etc. I think about all the things in life I assumed as a little girl would be normal.  Loss, of normal. Yep, that's it.

Loss of the normal as in, two parents who were married. 

Loss of the normal dreams, like grow up- get married- have 12 kids- be a stay at home mom- bake cookies, volunteer and have order and control in my home.

Loss of the normal as in, still have my breasts and uterus.  I admit, I do miss my breasts which I lost to beat breast cancer, my uterus not so much since it never did it's job in that whole 12 kids part of my normal.

Loss of the normal, as in, order in my home.  When we opened our home to fostering, and eventually adoption, all sense of order was lost.  Oh we have rules, and guidelines and kids are not swinging from the ceiling (most days) but in this world of foster care and adoption of special needs kids I have had to accept the loss of what I thought normal family life looked like and accept that mine will never meet the world's, my church family and even my friends standards of how you should raise a family.  Try as I do, the unique emotional and physical needs of these kids demand more, and in helping them heal, order, most days out the window.

Loss of the normal, as in wonderful, long, deep, heart to heart conversations with my teenager.  :)

We joke about things getting back to normal, but what is normal? 

In all the craziness of life, there are times when it's really tempting to loose heart.  To give in to the fear that I can't do this mommy, wife, employee, friend, sister, daughter, writer, etc. thing.  And I can't!  But the one thing I can't loose, is my God Daddy who continues to walk with me- through what His normal for my life is, and in Him, I can. 


II Cor 4:16 - 18
"Therefore we do not lose heart...for our light affliction which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen.  For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."

Loss is different for all of us.  I'm so thankful that God's peace is the same, no matter how we come to Him in need. 

Happy Friday, ya'll!