When I was a little girl, I wondered why my parents were divorced, and all my friend's parents were married. I wondered, as I watched all my friends "go steady" if anybody would ever love me. I wondered what it would be like to be a wife and mommy. Would I ever get the chance?
Then I grew up, and met the love of my life. We married, and I knew that somebody loved me. I became a mommy. Now I wonder about other things, like
will we ever have a morning without tears
who will my sons marry, and will she love Jesus?
will my kids remember all the times I told them I love you instead of the times I screamed at them
will my husband remember my name when we are 80
will I ever have all of my house clean at the same time
why I pick up the same shoes over and over and over, in the same day
will cancer come back
why age three is harder than two; and thirteen is harder than 14, and 30 was harder than 40 to accept
what will I fix for dinner tomorrow night
why do some people die so young
how they make the cheddar biscuits at Red Lobster.. I've tried and they just don't taste the same
when will Jesus come back for me?
Yes, there are lots of things I wonder about, but mostly I think about the wonder of the maker of all things. I wonder how, God himself created life, precious life and made it grow inside a woman. How we are connected to our children in ways that hurt to our core. I wonder, why the God of the Universe loved me enough to die for me?
Definitely much to wonder about!
Linking up to: thegypsymama
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