Ok, I promised myself I would do better about regular blogging but the first day of my promise I find myself very tired, and a bit whiny. Isaiah didn't go to bed until around midnight or so; Elijah was waking me up with bad dreams around 3am- the alarm went off at 5am.. and so our day officially began. Tonight, has just been one of those nights. The kind that I question everything, and wonder will it ever get better. One of those nights that reality crashes in all around me, reminding me that there is no EASY. One of those nights, where it seems that we are two steps forward, three backwards.
Our kids thrive on and desperately need routine. The same thing over and over any variance,brings great frustrations and usually leave us exasperated. We varied from our bedtime routine recently and now there isn't a routine. Aye, Aye, Aye! Now Shayne, he was easy.
I know what you are thinking- I hear it spoken frequently...
You asked for it.
I warned you.
I told you that this wasn't a good idea.
I try not to take offense to such comments. I know it comes from a lack of understanding of what our world is really like. And so, while yes, I am whining it just goes to show how much I trust my electronic world to let it all out. Please don't mistake my whining for regret. I wouldn't un-do any of the decisions that have brought us to where we are today; but that doesn't mean it is easy.
And, that means that daily we are dealing full force with RAD (Reactive Attachment Disorder) for Elijah; and Sensory Perceptive Disorder+ for Isaiah- among other things and sometimes we just get tired. Sometimes it feels lonely. Sometimes it just helps to vent - Whine a bit if you will.
See there, I'm feeling better already. And, since Shayne is hovering begging for the laptop and they are actually sleeping, I'm going to call it a night and try to grab some sleep before the foxes start chasing Isaiah or the bears get to Elijah....
Thanking God his mercies are new every morning!