As is the norm for our family and probably yours, this week has been full of ups and downs. It started Sunday with an awesome discussion with my man. It was one of those married people talks. Intimate conversation. It exhausted me mentally so much so that I haven't "felt" like blogging because my emotions are spent, and lets just say menopause is rampant in the Allen house this week. But, it was one of those conversations that I haven't been able to forget about.
John 8:32 "And you will know the TRUTH, and the truth will set you free"
Why is it that we tend to avoid that which sets us free. It is difficult to look truth in the eye and so we avoid it, even when it is under our noses. No, Rex and I didn't have any secrets to reveal, wasn't talking about that kind of truth; but just tired of playing games and living religion based on rules and not a relationship. Nothing new- just seeing it with fresh eyes, if you will. Not because we were avoiding it, but just seemed to miss it. That's where the freedom comes into play- when you find it, WOW!
God is showing Rex truth, and as he is seeing it, he is showing me. That's what a husband is supposed to do, right? That's what I've prayed for all these years. So, why is it hard to trust him in this? Because sometimes truth seems ugly, requires action and change and so we avoid it. I am thankful that Rex is not avoiding it, he is finding freedom and I'm tagging along. I'm not sure I completely understand it all- it is scary to let go of tradition, and rules and religion when that has been your security. But because Jesus is the Truth- he is the source of truth and the perfect standard. That's why truth is sometimes ugly; when we look at things- our circumstances, choices, failures, wants, desires, etc. compared to Jesus, it reaks of ugly. Thankfully, He sets us free, not to do whatever we want to do; but freedom to be a follower of God. Freedom to enjoy Him. You can keep all the rules (you'll never be able to keep them either) just give me Jesus. I want the relationship.
I know it may surprise some of you to learn I am a bit of a control freak, so it is a learning process to trust my husband as he leads me in truth. Don't judge me, I doubt it is a piece of cake for you either. I am so blessed that in Rex's search for truth, he is finding it and sharing freedom; and our relationship with the Lord is becoming more real and precious.
Wow, is that chains I hear falling to the ground?